Unworthy

This morning in our church worship service, I led out in singing "Revelation Song." I have sung this song before, and I didn't really think about it much until it was going on right then on the stage.

It wasn't very far into the song before I was overwhelmed with how very UNworthy I am. And there I was, in front of everyone, leading in a song about how worthy GOD is.

I am a pretty good singer, especially by church standards. And this gets me into trouble. If I ever forget what my voice is for, like if I start to take pride in it for my own sake and puff up myself, it's completely worthless. I know God can use the most unworthy of vessels in His own good pleasure (like Balaam's donkey, for example), so in that way, if what I am singing is pointing others towards God, it's not entirely in vain. But it is far better when I remember my place in light of HIS holiness and HIS worthiness, and I see nothing of worth in myself apart from Him. My righteousness is filthy rags. That's why I need a savior. I need that Lamb who was slain and now sits on the throne. I need the Holy One who was, and is, and is to come.

This thought overwhelmed me this morning as I sang, and thankfully the tears didn't come until after the song was over.

I bet you can guess what song is in my head. Yeah, still that one.